All I Could Deposit
by Jonathan Kraft
Written 26. July, 2009

I want
my body
my mind
my soul
To be empty
when they use my ashes
to fill an empty space
They’ve dug to be my resting place
so empty, from what I’ve deposited on the earth,
That the ashes of my earthly body
will never be able to fill the space.

Perhaps that’s what people mean
when they say the space feels empty
After someone leaves this life

It’s a compliment
to the individual who’s gone.

They emptied so completely
That people really notice
the emptiness
once they’re gone.

I want it to be like that for me…
And not just 1 or 10 or 100.

Millions.
I want millions to know
that I have left this life empty.

Emptied as a vessel
of all that I could deposit here
(if that’s even possible).

This means it’s time
to deposit so much more
of what’s inside
as a lifelong pursuit

Into the hearts and minds
of the world at large.

This “fill up, pour out” process
is difficult

But I’m glad to understand it
Excited for the experiences
and the connections
it brings
and Grateful
so Grateful
for the opportunity to live it